It's gonna happen.

As the date draws near, I couldn't help but question myself if I am ever ready for this step.
It's an advancement in life.
It's a big responsibility.

But will I ever be ready for it?

I feel so incompetent.
That I am less and never more.
I owe so much to the people around me to make me become what I am today.
And when the idea floats around the air, I asked myself again and again.

Will I ever be ready for it?

Its evident how much I depend on him, how my life would be so vastly different if he didn't choose to be part of it.
I guess it's inevitable.

Could he ever accept me for all my flaws?


x Rant x




Am I just a pretender?

Do I not have the will to push on?

Have I not learnt anything?


Guide me please.


x Rant x



She told him to leave.
But he stayed.

She told him to never come back again.
But he is there everyday.

She told him to forget.
But he always remember.


x Once Upon a Time x



She doesn't see it that he cares but instead, the suffocation he implied on her from the way he does it.
She didn't know by eliminating the problem herself, created another between them.
She thought it was the preferred way but she forgets, he is different.

Different from anyone she had met before.
And it is time for her to stop treating him like everyone else.



x Rant x


You may not know this and you may say otherwise, but I have tried..
I have tried to love you.
But every time I come close, you make me feel little or less about myself.
I'm tired of being sorry for this.

Goodbye.



x Rant x


I know you have your own set of priorities too and I know you that care.
"Welcome to the world with no pain."

She said as she offered her hand.
I took it without hesitating, shredding my skin as I drifted away together with her.

"You could be a new person here. A new name. A new face. A new personality."

Take me as far as you can..Teach me to live here because the world I had once lived was polluted with hatred and fear. Take me in, please.


And so she did.


x Alter Ego x