Romeo & Juliet
Friday, June 27, 2014 | 10:27 PM | 0comments
I know I shouldn't have gotten myself involved.
And now regret overwhelms me.
All I want to do now is focus on my life, as selfish as it may sound.
Would it be mean to stop talking to you almost entirely?
But I still have responsibilities to uphold to you.
Perhaps, only the important things shall be discuss.
It hurts me more to do this than it's hurting you.
x Rant x
Seduction
Monday, June 16, 2014 | 11:00 PM | 0comments
He picked up her hand, extending kisses along e back of it to her wrist and travelled slowly to the nape of her neck. She smiled until he traced down to her chest. Her smiled faded when he placed a hand on either side of her bossom, plumping them together so he could kiss them at the same time. He dropped his head almost immediately, mouthing a nipple.
She pulled her head back, drowning herself into the sensation and when he drew the tip into his mouth, she gasped aloud, arching her back, prompting him to do it again.
She leaned forward to kiss his shoulder, tasting his skin. He brushed his lips on her skin and with every kiss he planted, all her worries vanished before her. Nothing else mattered but his touch of his hands on her skin, his lips as he coaxed her mouth open. She inhaled his breath, gave him hers, wrapped her arms around his shoulders, her excitement mounting.
She had longed for his touch and as she whimpered for more, his fingers began to dance across her skin, in hidden folds, coaxing even more heat from her. When his fingers finally entered her, she shivered in pleasure. She grabbed him by his shoulders, turning torwards him, urging and hinting him not to tease her. She wanted to feel him inside her, the completeness, the feeling of his hard and thick manhood in her wetness. Wrapping her legs now around him, she let out a moan and a muffled plead.
I want you now. Please.
As he poised above her completely naked, she took that moment to steal a look on his hardness. He was majestic, almost too thick for her to swallow him whole. He looked delicious and as she licked her lips, wetting them as though ready to kiss him a mouthful, he thrust into her, filling and claiming her, almost impatient yet desperate to last. He raised himself over her, gently pulling out and surged into her again. Surprise had her gasping and grabbing his arms so tightly she gouged him with her nails.
Oh please don't stop. Don't stop.
She wanted him to ravage her, to pull her hair as he would slammed her hard from her behind, to choke her while he thrust himself in, to bite her nipples as her body shook with pleasure but he was careful, he was measured. She wanted to please herself as much as she is pleasing him.
His breathing got heavier and she was hungrier. Pulling himself closer to her, she pushed him to her side and within seconds, their roles were reversed. He found himself pinned down with her bossom so perfectly placed above his mouth, he couldn't resist not to kiss them. She held up both his arms above his head, locking them down, in a position she had pictured in her mind a thousand times. Oh she had wanted to tie him down so badly but she has no time for games.
Perhaps another time, she smiled as she widened her legs.
Perhaps another time, she smiled as she widened her legs.
Rubbing her clit on his manhood slowly, she could feel his hardness yearning for her. She trailed down his body with one hand to his groin, feeling his mandhood in her hands, tempting herself with his length and his thickness leaving her lips wet with hunger. Without hesitation, she lowered her body down and swallowed him straight. He let out a moan when her lips explored his whole length and as he reached the back of her throat, she gagged almost immediately, yet that didn't stop her at all. She is enjoying this.
Bobbing her head up and down, she licked and she sucked his hardness whole. She has been thinking about this the whole time she was away from him and she wouldn't let him stop her from claiming her prize.
Bobbing her head up and down, she licked and she sucked his hardness whole. She has been thinking about this the whole time she was away from him and she wouldn't let him stop her from claiming her prize.
You naughty girl. Have you been thinking about this? Have you?
Her moaned was her answer.
Grabbing his mandhood with both hands without unlocking her lips away, she could feel she was getting wetter. She was going faster and with every time she reached his base, she would paused to let it all soaked in.
If you keep doing this, I might just come in your mouth baby.
...Or is that what you want?
He wanted this moment to be elongated, she knew, stretched until pleasure was a skein wrapping around and forever joining them. But she was greedy, she was hungry, she had been waiting for this moment for too long. She slid herself in and her hips arched in a rhythm they shared. She wanted to be ravaged and unrestrained, so she was, nipping at his bottom lip, fingers curved and raking his back as she rode him hard.
He grabbed her hips and rocked her fast, moaning and murmuring against her skin. Words that were cautionary or calming, she wasn't sure anymore, she had lost herself in his pleasure, his touch, his kisses. Slowly she rose up until he was nearly out of her then lowered herself again. She continued while pacing herself up. Pleasure pierced into him.
She was going to kill him, she was certain of it.
But he couldn't move, he was concentrating on his breathing so he could make this moment last a little longer.
She was going to kill him, she was certain of it.
But he couldn't move, he was concentrating on his breathing so he could make this moment last a little longer.
I'm not going to last if you keep doing that.
I don't want you to last. Come with me baby. Come with me.
His hands clenched on her waist and as he tasted the dampness of her skin, the heat of it, he was lost in her hot and tightness as she clamped around him. When he finally erupted into her, climax hit her and it was with knowledge that he was lost into passion, his spirit and body shrunken, his heart once more given to her.
She might have screamed, she thought she did. She had no choice.
Who wouldn't?
With a lover as good as him, it would be a humiliating if she didn't.
Who wouldn't?
With a lover as good as him, it would be a humiliating if she didn't.
x Alter Ego x
The reality of my dream
Friday, June 6, 2014 | 1:20 AM | 0comments
I woke up tearing one morning.
It was still dark.I reached out my phone for the time.
It was 4:30am.
It had only been an hour of sleep yet I felt I was gone for almost half the night.
I sat up.
And I cried.
I couldn't stop myself. I was shaking and I needed to calm myself down but I was vulnerable. In the midst of confusion.
I had lost you.
You were gone and you can never come back. It was cruel. My mind was cruel to be playing on me.
No goodbyes, no kisses, no "I miss you". Nothing.
You were gone within a blink of an eye. It wasn't a breakup, no. It was so much worse. I couldn't even bring myself to say it. All I could remember, an unfortunate fate had befell on you and now my heart is a blackhole. It ache so bad I started tearing up again.
It wasn't real, yes I know.
But the thought of you leaving us, leaving me...was too painful that it almost felt like it happened.
No. If it is true. the pain would be unbearable.. I couldn't and don't think I would survive that.
Losing you in that nightmare felt like losing half of my life. What hurts the most was that I couldn't even do anything about it. I couldn't prevent it nor could I stop it when it happened.
I was completely helpless.
Never was I prepared for this, to be honest, I had never wanted to. I want to believe that no matter how hard life slaps us in the face, we could overcome it together, come what may and that nothing, not even the hardships of life, could separates us.
I was too bold. I was selfish. I was ignorant. And I deserve this.
A painful reminder that I have to bear. I had never fear of losing you because I know you would always be by my side as do I. But losing you like this...
Life is never fair and that is how it just is.. I never tell you enough of how much you mean to me or how big of a space you have in my heart or how my world has changed so much because of you.
You are the reason why I look forward to every morning. The reason for the butterflies in my belly when you kiss me or even a simple "Hello" through the phone. The reason for hope to be alive again when I thought I've given it all. The reason im running towards the light at the end of the tunnel in my darkest moments. You are the reason behind my laughters, my tears, my pain and my joy.
I may not say it often but you must know, if you are reading this, that I love you so very much Muhammad Zulhilmi bin Jamal. And I'm gonna make every moment count.
x Rant x
