Confession
Sunday, April 20, 2014 | 11:15 PM | 0comments
I didnt want an affair, nothing grubby, nothing seedy and certainly not cybersex. I just wanted adventure, excitement, a reminder I am alive.
It all felt harmless, innocent and fun. I concealed away anything that could give away my true identity but talked about what interest them most.
The excitement was incomparable. I felt so thrillingly alive. I became addicted and I craved for more attention. I had never felt more desired in my life. But I realised I needed to stop. Only..it was shortlived.
It felt just like smoking - You had to quit decisively at first, then slipped up, quit again and led you crave for some kind of patch.
I kept telling myself that it was all in the name of enjoyment and harmless flirtation but we all knew...it wasn't.
I don't know what I am anymore.
x Alter Ego x
